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Dear “you’re not enough”/”you’re too much” voices (My Manifesto)04 / 20 / 2019

Dear “you’re not enough”/”you’re too much” voices,
Fuck off.
You’ve tortured me for the past 34 years.
And I’ve allowed it.
I’ve allowed you to steal my joy.
I’ve allowed you to wake me up in the middle of the night harassing me.
I’ve allowed you to rob me of my self-care.
I’ve allowed you to shut down my intuition.
I’ve allowed you to translate every “no”, rejection and criticism into proof of my unworthiness.
I’ve allowed you to keep me in a state of anxiety whenever faced with possible rejection.
I’ve allowed you to keep me stuck in a cycle of attracting and entertaining unavailable men.
I’ve allowed you to keep my boundaries weak.
I’ve allowed you to rob me of the ability to enjoy my talent.
I’ve allowed you to rob me of the ability to enjoy my beauty.
I’ve allowed you to downplay my achievements.
I’ve allowed you to steal my voice.
I’ve allowed you to put pressure filled timelines on the milestones in my life.
I’ve allowed you to compare me unfairly to other people.
I’ve allowed you to hold me to the impossible standard of perfection.
I’ve allowed you to self-soothe with sugar.
I’ve allowed you to keep me checking social media compulsively.
I’ve allowed you to put a lid on my shine.
I’ve allowed you to keep me in a prison of shame.
I’ve allowed you to keep me fearing judgement more than freedom.
You have taken up entirely too much of my time.
You don’t get another fucking second.
You’re not welcome here anymore.

沉’m taking my fucking joy back. All of it.
沉’m getting all 8 hours of my sleep every night.
沉’m going deeper into self-care than I ever have before. I’m putting myself first and taking exquisite care of myself EVERY FUCKING DAY.
沉’m living from my intuition.
沉 am totally okay with hearing “no”, experiencing rejection and hearing criticism because there is NOTHING that ANYONE can say to me that will change my inherent value.
沉 am releasing all anxiety around attractive men.
沉’m only entertaining men that are 100% available.
沉 set strong boundaries whenever necessary.
沉’m living from a state of peace.
沉’m enjoying the fuck out of my ability to play the piano.
沉’m enjoying the fuck out of my ability to sing.
沉’m enjoying the fuck out of my beauty.
沉’m fully celebrating my success.
沉’m freely speaking my truth.
沉’m reclaiming my singing voice and not trying to push it to be any louder than it is naturally.
沉’m taking all of the high pressure timelines off my life and surrendering to God’s timing.
沉’m deleting every comparison to others.
沉 am free from the slavery of perfectionism.
沉 am free from addiction to sugar.
沉 am placing strong boundaries around my social media time.
沉’m shining more than I ever have before in my life.
沉 release ALL of my shame.
沉 choose liberation over judgement.
沉’m reclaiming my time.
沉’m taking all of my fucking power back NOW.
沉’m no longer interested in a slow, gradual process or journey to healing.
沉’ve waited long enough.
沉’m healed NOW.
Ashe.

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